The Gift of Life in The Hand Holding Mine

photo by Kim Harms

Not unlike many who will read this post, I have suffered a miscarriage. The months that followed were emotionally draining as I grieved the baby I would never know and wondered if I would be able to have another child.

God did bless my husband and me with another baby. Our third boy. Lewis Paul. He was perfect. He cried very little, he smiled often, and took the abuse love from his big brothers in stride. He was indeed a gift. Quite possibly the best gift Corey and I have ever received. Not because he is any better or more lovely than his brothers, but because his life came after great pain.

That little baby has turned into wild and crazy eight-year-old, but he is still a treasure. The following poem is something I wrote after meeting him for lunch in his school cafeteria. To him, I am simply his mama. But to me, he is a daily reminder of God’s love. Of his gift of life.

hold handsThe Hand Holding Mine

Waiting in the lunch line

Adrift in a sea of children

A little boy’s hand

slips unpretentiously into mine.


Back and forth he swings my arm

All the while

Animatedly chatting

With the classmates surrounding him.


This moment does not dissolve his heart.

The touch of my hand does not cause his eye to tear.

He is simply a little boy

Staking claim to his mama.


But to me it is courtesy of Vlado at

Those fingers all wrapped up in mine

I am wholly in love

In this brief moment.


Lost in a world

Where smooth little fingers mesh easily with aging hands

And the expression of a son’s love for his mama

Comes as naturally as laughing with his friends.


Kim Harms

Kim Harms is a writer and speaker who is represented by Literary Agent Karen Neumair of Credo Communications. She is under contract with Familius Publishing for her first book, tentatively titled Life Reconstructed. Harms has a degree in English: Literary Studies from Iowa State University and was a regular contributor at the former Today's Christian Woman. She underwent a bilateral mastectomy and reconstruction surgeries in 2016 after being diagnosed with breast cancer and writes about her Life Reconstructed at Central Iowa is home, and she lives there with her husband Corey and their 3 ever-growing man-children.

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