The Muddy Mess Beneath My Immaculate Robe of Righteousness

Like my robe of righteousness, the snow blanketed the earth with brilliant white.

by Nan Jones

A six-inch blanket of snow covered our mountain in the color of pristine. The trees and forests, rooftops and vehicles were painted in thick white frosting — beauty beyond description.

White, like our robes of righteousness that covers all shame and makes all things new.

White, like the glorious light of God’s Presence. Luminous. Incandescent.

Beauty Beyond Description

I started out on my daily walk. The snowplow had gone past our house a little earlier, making the trek a bit easier. The wonder of this snow touched my heart as I took in the flawless landscape around me.

I rounded the curve and approached the pine canopy arching across our road. I noticed that the snowplow’s blade had scraped beyond the pavement into the edge of the meadow. The plow dug in deep, disturbing the white perfection. Large chunks of snow rolled over, revealing mud and debris and long-forgotten pine needles.

I paused.

My mind filled with thoughts about my faith journey.

The robe of righteousness makes my sins whiter than snow.

How on the surface things appear smooth, maybe lovely to others.

But underneath there is debris and long-forgotten wounds that muddy the soil of my heart.

From time to time, the Lord plows through my heart, the sword of His Spirit digging deep, exposing what lurks beneath my white robe of righteousness. Things I had forgotten about. Things I thought had been overcome. Things that were yet to be surrendered to His lordship.

It’s not pretty — that muddy mess beneath the immaculate robe He has clothed me in.

But once the mess is exposed, God can do His work.

The ground dug into and rolled over by the snowplow will respond like garden soil tilled by the gardener. Fallow ground hardened by drought will revive as the snow melts into streams of living water for a thirsty earth.

The soil in my heart will do the same.

The debris exposed by His love will break down into nourishment for new growth in my faith journey. The long-forgotten wounds will be healed by the light of His glory, creating fertile soil for the things of God to flourish.

Come Spring I Will See Clearly

Come Spring, I suspect there will be a new cluster of wildflowers thriving on the edge of the meadow where once a muddy mess clung to the edges of overturned clumps of snow.

I suspect the fruit of His Spirit will thrive in me where long-forgotten wounds and debris of the heart clung to the hem of His garment yearning to be whiter than snow.

Once my winter of the soul has passed.


Nan Jones

Nan Jones is an author/speaker who uses the words of her heart to assist fellow Christians in discovering the Presence of God in their darkest hour. She has been published in several anthologies as well as the online inspirational sites Christian Devotions, and Inspire a Fire where she is a monthly contributor. She is also a monthly contributor to PW Connections, a blog and forum to encourage pastors' wives. Nan has had the honor of being featured as a guest blogger on several sites. She is thrilled to announce her debut book, The Perils of a Pastor's Wife released June 30, 2015 by Lighthouse Publishing of the Carolinas. This memoir was a 2016 Selah finalist. When Nan isn't writing, she enjoys leading prayer retreats, bible studies or sharing God’s love as keynote speaker for special events. She is becoming known by her brand: "Even so, I walk in the Presence of the Lord" as she teaches her audience to go beyond the veil to find God's Presence. You may visit Nan at her website: Nan has also created a facebook community page, Seeing Beyond The Veil, to provide a place for folks to go and get away from the chaos for a few moments and focus on Jesus through scripture, worship, testimony, and inspirational quotes. For personal communication you may email Nan at The Perils of a Pastor's Wife is available on Amazon, Barnes and Noble, and LPC Bookstore

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